Shelly Ginter Conrad
Written: April 14, 2007
Note: I wrote this almost 12 years ago now. I posted it because of its relevance to mountains and climbing. A season in which I find myself in once again.
If there is one thing I’ve discovered over the past few years it’s that I absolutely love the outdoors! It’s in this natural setting I meet God face to face and experience His presence the closest. What I love most is hiking in the mountains! There are no mountains where I live in Texas but I have had the joy of traveling to places known for their mountains, eagles, rivers and streams. The breathtaking panoramic view from the lookout point I arrive at after a long, exhausting climb is overwhelming and deeply moving. The sheer enjoyment and excitement of both the beauty and grandeur of the surroundings and the physical challenge of the climb combine a unique and unforgettable experience. God has not only allowed me to experience mountains in a physical and tangible way but He has also allowed me to experience victory in my life by overcoming trials that I have viewed as mountains to climb along the way. Through it all, God has been with me even during those times when He has seemed so far away. The valuable lessons I’ve learned throughout my life have made me stronger and have increased my faith.
Several days ago, God began to speak to my heart telling me to set aside my ministry aspirations for a time and to wait. Discouraged, I began to reflect on the timing of the fulfillment of a speaking ministry and it wasn’t long before I realized my timing was not His. With a husband and two children at home I was convicted that my passion to serve God was beginning to take precedence over whether the timing would be right for my family. He brought to mind my word for the year, “healing,” and told me not to get ahead of myself and create my own way. I realized despite experiencing tremendous personal healing over the past three years, there was more to be had. God whispered into my heart and began to say, “I’m placing your desires on hold for now and I am asking you to put the needs of others before your own. It’s not only you I am calling to serve me in ministry but also your husband and kids whom I will need to prepare each in their own way. It is extremely important you continue to build trust with them, which will come from making more of a priority in your life. They will feel loved and respected as you serve them and place their needs before your own.” Hearing all this I said, “Alright Lord, whatever you say but please grant me the patience I need because there is a fire inside me that I cannot contain!”
Our dialog continued. “There’s a new mountain I want you to climb,” He said. At that point I began to visualize this new mountain in my head. “It’s unlike any mountain you’ve ever hiked before and it will be the hardest, most demanding climb of your life!” He said. “Wow, so how do I train for this one Lord and do I need to workout extra long hours to get myself in great shape?” I exclaimed. “No, Shelly,” He responded without hesitation. “There’s something about this mountain that’s unlike any mountain you’ve climbed before and that is what makes it so mysterious and vitally important to you,” He urged. “So just what is it about this mountain that is so very different from all the rest?” I replied. “This mountain is not a physical mountain but a spiritual one that will be full of emotion and it will challenge your will in a way unlike never before. This mountain is called Mount Yourself,” He passionately exclaimed. Intrigued I said, “I’ve never heard of that one before!” A bit confused I again replied, “I don’t understand Lord, please help me to know what you’re trying to say.” I could see it coming, this mysterious and valuable lesson He was talking about was about to unfold. Speaking directly into my soul He whispered, “You’ve hiked and made it to the top of several physical mountains but now it’s time for you to hike to the top of a mountain that is going to bring even greater emotional healing into your life than ever before! It’s a spiritual mountain and you will be unable to conquer it in your strength alone. There will be challenges along the way in the form of lies that will try and trick you into believing you’ve gone off course and you’re all alone on the climb. You must tap into the supernatural power of the Holy Spirit within you and from it gain the strength, endurance and confidence you will need to overcome this mountain you now face at this time. It will require you to surrender your selfish ambitions deep within your heart. This adventure will no doubt try and intimidate you and there will be times when you feel unable to take your next step. But you must press on and keep your eyes fixed readily on My face and surrender your will, step out and walk by faith. Trust and hold fast to the hope that your efforts will be well worth the toil and pain. Have hope, as you will also experience much joy and blessings as you reach higher and higher on your way to Mount Yourself’s highest place. Hold fast to Me, the summit will become clearer and clearer each step that we take.”
Overwhelmed by what I just heard and feeling much uncertainty I said, “Oh Lord, I have to admit I am a bit afraid. This is a mountain I’ve never climbed before so please assure me You will make Your presence known to me along the way!” I immediately felt an overwhelming sense of peace as He reached out to take my hand. Grasping it tightly He said, “I am with you always and will never let you go, stay close to me so you’re not deceived by your flesh that will tempt you to go off-course leading you astray. It is time for me to make you aware of the true meaning of this mountain that is not a physical place. Shelly, it represents you, you’re the mountain you must overcome and it will be a steep, treacherous climb we hike together so trust Me...I AM THE WAY. Though things are unclear to you now and you are uncertain about this new terrain, have faith in Me as your guide and I will show you the way. Are you willing? Will you surrender yourself to me this day? This journey will teach you to be humble and it will grow you up and increase your faith. In doing so, there will be a reward in heaven for you someday. There is a goal you will set out to achieve but it is not one you might think. The goal of this climb is not only to reach the highest peak because in this case that would be making it only halfway. The goal is for you to get over (Mt.) YOURSELF then descend to the base of this mountain that I’ve identified as you. Have you now clearly understood My message, Dear One? Life is about serving and considering the needs of others, it’s not about you.”
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